I decided to use my muscle power for good on people who are depositing good things into my bank account. When I say bank account I mean saying positive affirmations or simply just treating me right. I have been told I have the gift of being a goof proof gift giver and a diffuser. I have learned these things from people who I have felt don’t like me. It was a surprise to me because in that moment I could feel when those two things were said about from the people who said it they were true as the hater could get. I thought those things about my s myself at some point but I never really put any serious thought into thinking that deeply about it because it came so naturally to me. I have now come to the realization I need to believe in myself in order for my muscles to grow. This is where my power lies. There have been so many people who have tried to snatch my power away. To no avail they were unsuccessful. I come across haters quite a bit, just about everyone in my family is a hater. I have had to deal with it since birth pretty much, so it was something I was born into. I have had to deal with so called friends trying to hold me back from the potential they saw in me because they were scared of me. I have to admit I get scared of myself at times because of all the knowledge I possess. I feel like my potential scares some people or my light disturbs some peoples demons. Knowing this, I can immediately see when a person does not like me, is jealous, or envious of me as a person. At this point, I let their hate be my motivation because it has been the fuel that has gotten me to where I am thus far. It soothes my soul when I focus on myself. I have been doing just that since the pandemic began. I think the pandemic was a blessing from God to get in touch with ourselves and to be a better person.

In my opinion and my personal experience I do better working by myself. I have been thrust to work and be by myself because I do better when I am on my own. I have been in situations where friends, family and my job has taken my focus away. I know now that when I place my focus on the right things it only benefits me. I feel happier and I know I am doing something right. I also find when I am placing my focus on myself people can somehow sense it. They can sometimes smell that my focus is on myself and they try to steal it away. Now that I am more knowledgeable about peoples intentions I don’t let it get to me. My focus is for me to shine on myself and allow it to beam on others who are in the vicinity of me. I have no choice to not care about the friends I do not have because they have often times not been around me for good.

My power lies in who I am and I have decided to let my muscles get stronger over time from me not being so dependent on being friends with people who don’t bring anything to the table. I have grown to be happy with myself and not care where I am because I am where I am supposed to be